Hi ladies,
So happy 4 u all..will pray for urs and ur baby's great health
As for us,ur little one has gone on to God's side last Wed.I had some bleeding on Tues nite and called the clinic on Wed morn and was asked to go see the dr..little did we know it is the day we have to say bye to our little one.
Was told the little one is no longer in the sac and was told I have to go thru a D&C (a op to wash out) either on same day or we can wait for a while. But we decided we may as well do it on the actual day as it was already agonizing enuf..wat more to prolong the emotional pain and come back to the clinic again..
It was hard to accept as a week ago we were told baby has a weak heartbeat..it was already very worrying..n within a week,we have to deal with this..
It was very painful n it took me a full week before i have the courage to post this to share with u ladies..last week has been very tough.
Altho my frens were very supportive in praying,cooking nutritious stuff for me,but the grief in my heart is still there..
I keep telling myself to be strong but it still hurts.Hate it when others tell me "you are still young,you can always try again!" I knw others mean well when they say that,i so wanna tell them "yes i knw i m fertile,u dun need to tell me tat i can always get another baby!I m sad tat i have lost my little one and another baby will not make the grief go away!So stop saying tat!!!!"
My frens,my heart is still very painful but i have to put on a strong front as i dun wanna burden others around me in comforting me...
Some days i m oki..but others i can still feel the pain..like now..as i write..i cannot help but....
Ladies,
Pls do not let my story upset you but instead rejoice & believe in the fact that you have a healthy baby and will do great as a mummy ok?