hi good morning mummies, am so so tired, almost couldn't woke up, was woken up by the beeping machine.
Just want to share, yesterday time to change the tubing for my baby, then we prepare all the necessary thingys, I carried bb and my MIL do the insertion. Being first-timers without any nurses, we was quite panicky although we prepared those necessary things on hand. We keep testing the 'liquid' we flush out with litmus paper but still it doesn't turn pink! Try many times still don't turn pink, called homecare nurse and realized I cut the 'cover' of the litmus paper booklet, that's why, true enuf, tested ok. I know my inlaws heartpain my baby, coz somemore we re-inserted coz thought nvr reach his stomach, I felt my inlaws sort of 'blame' me for my carelessness and causing bb un-needed pain when he had been thru so much. I already berating myself for being so blur. haiz.
I really feel so stressed, sometimes can't control my tears. I don't know issit partly coz not enuf sleep at nite coz taking care of him or am I still worrying that after he been thru so much, after do so much for him, he wun recover?..