hi honeyb,
ahh ok. but at same time do u feel like there will always be a reason to delay? like now i'm saying i'm new to this job, well 5 months now, but i dunno, i jus really want, but yet really hesitant. if i conceive now, the kids will b 3 years apart, which is quite ideal. any later than this, is like quite a wide gap, hence it is like the pressure is on for now. leon is the only grandchild for both sides, + only great grandson for my grandma too. so i'm the only married one from both sides, hence really the pressure is on me ... maybe it is the pressure that is getting to me, sigh. truth is, i'm v happy with leon, hubby and me now, but it's 'normal' to have another one at least, and i'm sure leon would love another one. so far people i know who r only child, what more in leon's case only grandson, great grandson, do have some sort of issues. then i have this looming thought, that my dad (home recovering from stroke) will deteriorate, of cos that must be me being negative n paranoid, n then there is my MIL who i jus don trust period, so all in all, so many factor for and not for the #2. that said, i really look at families with 2 kids or more with envy, really mb just wish i wasn'tso hesitant for ungrounded reasons.
jus venting away my thots today ...