i want to write down my frustrations... i just got back from a biz trip of 3 weeks and everything is out of control.. i left my bb with my MIL, who is a wonderful caregiver, but just not my style..
she carries her all the time..
she carries her to sleep..
feed her to sleep..
when i left, my bb only wakes up for 1 feed around 1am and sleep latest 8pm..
now, she don't fall asleep till 11 pm, and wakes up 4 times a nite on my first nite.. and wakes up at 7 am..
i'm dying, and while i'm trying to discipline and put in some routine.. when i'm got back home, "all i get is why i let my bb cry so much, why i bully my bb.. where got bb sleeps so much.. bb wakes up for milk is normal wat.. "
but if bb dun sleep, i still got to go to work every morning, waking up a few times for milk feed when all she wants is to be nurse to sleep cuz of all the bad habits she cumulative.. all i want to do is let my bb learn how to sleep herself.. rather than use all the nursing tools such as carry and milk.. but it's so tiring..
i'm so frustrated.. i can only c my mil comes into e room to carry my bb out when i wanted to let her learn how to fall asleep herself..
i'm in e room now, bb outside living room w MIL, i bet u she'll fall asleep in her arms, another day of not sleeping by herself.. it has been 6mths, when will be the rite time.. i'm so helpless.. the agony of a working mum, so lack of control over my own bb..
alas..