I'm not the best artist, in fact i got an F for Art.
I've had this image since i was 12 or maybe 13. It's been 17 years. It was always a mental image, but I've taken to drawing it out today after struggling with so many issues. It comes up very often especially when I'm upset... even more so these days/months. I fear telling anyone i know because they may start thinking I'm crazy..i remember telling my ex once when i was in a delirious state and he told me i needed to see someone. I never mentioned it again.
I've decided to lay it out here as it's anonymous , hoping i'm not alone and hoping someone can tell me what these may mean.
That's me on the hospital bed, with my head wrapped and on an oxygen mask, and a few drips. The doctor beside me ... his name is Zhenyuan. The people at the table are like angels. I could never really see their faces. The boxes beside them are TV screens. The screen sometimes turn red or turn into white noise when I'm depressed or upset. The siren on top is in red and goes off when I break down uncontrollably. When these things happen the 'angels' stand up and panic and try to calm me down in my hospital bed cos i'd keep crying and flinging. The doctor would give me a shot of the tranquilizer. I would then calm down and the doctor would look very grim.
My parents and my partner would then come in thru the door. The doctor would bring them to his office and tell them I was in bad shape.
Does anyone have the same experience as me?
I've had this image since i was 12 or maybe 13. It's been 17 years. It was always a mental image, but I've taken to drawing it out today after struggling with so many issues. It comes up very often especially when I'm upset... even more so these days/months. I fear telling anyone i know because they may start thinking I'm crazy..i remember telling my ex once when i was in a delirious state and he told me i needed to see someone. I never mentioned it again.
I've decided to lay it out here as it's anonymous , hoping i'm not alone and hoping someone can tell me what these may mean.
That's me on the hospital bed, with my head wrapped and on an oxygen mask, and a few drips. The doctor beside me ... his name is Zhenyuan. The people at the table are like angels. I could never really see their faces. The boxes beside them are TV screens. The screen sometimes turn red or turn into white noise when I'm depressed or upset. The siren on top is in red and goes off when I break down uncontrollably. When these things happen the 'angels' stand up and panic and try to calm me down in my hospital bed cos i'd keep crying and flinging. The doctor would give me a shot of the tranquilizer. I would then calm down and the doctor would look very grim.
My parents and my partner would then come in thru the door. The doctor would bring them to his office and tell them I was in bad shape.
Does anyone have the same experience as me?