Been ttc for 2 years, and was at the verge of giving up until I did a test (out of fun and curiosity) and gotten my BFP on 31st May.
Like I said, I've already mentally "pyscho-ed" myself that having a child is more than just life-time liability (just to make myself feel better for the past 2 years), and totally unprepared for the news.
I was upset most of the time. Emotionally unstable. And as my work place may require me to carry heavy loads (lack of manpower, i'm supposed to be on my desk and comp), I informed my lady boss about my pregnancy.
But i realized after informing her, she began to pin-point me at the smallest stuff. And continue to require me to serve and pack orders (require to carry 15kg load at times etc).
After a couple of weeks, I told my lady boss that she can forfeit my maternity leave etc and see how she reacts to thing
Apparently she's treating me better (by not pin-pointing at small tiny stuffs), and making me to do what I initially signed up for for my jobscope (so it's the maternity leave she's concerned with lol)
The salary is relatively good. Comfortable and allowing me to have sufficient savings monthly.
But working environment is not just toxic but sad. 7 people had left in just 1 year time (small company)
My husband of course wish that I can continue with my job as our expenses for our house, car etc is high
But I'm really exhausted, especially with this first trimester of constantly queasiness, puking and backache
And been overthinking lately. As some mom-to-be "feel" for their pregnancy, but I'm not feeling anything about it nor the connection except for the puking, backache etc. It makes me feel bad about it at times too.
In the beginning I thought, perhaps after hearing the heartbeat I'll be more convinced and start to "feel" connected to it. But after hearing the heartbeat, I don't feel excited at all. Is this normal? I'm turning 9 weeks tomorrow. Is it too early to feel the connection with the fetus?
And worst thing worst, my colleague had a miscarriage a month before I conceived
I had to let my office people know my pregnancy so I don't have to carry any heavy loads.
Super awkward
Very lost
Like I said, I've already mentally "pyscho-ed" myself that having a child is more than just life-time liability (just to make myself feel better for the past 2 years), and totally unprepared for the news.
I was upset most of the time. Emotionally unstable. And as my work place may require me to carry heavy loads (lack of manpower, i'm supposed to be on my desk and comp), I informed my lady boss about my pregnancy.
But i realized after informing her, she began to pin-point me at the smallest stuff. And continue to require me to serve and pack orders (require to carry 15kg load at times etc).
After a couple of weeks, I told my lady boss that she can forfeit my maternity leave etc and see how she reacts to thing
Apparently she's treating me better (by not pin-pointing at small tiny stuffs), and making me to do what I initially signed up for for my jobscope (so it's the maternity leave she's concerned with lol)
The salary is relatively good. Comfortable and allowing me to have sufficient savings monthly.
But working environment is not just toxic but sad. 7 people had left in just 1 year time (small company)
My husband of course wish that I can continue with my job as our expenses for our house, car etc is high
But I'm really exhausted, especially with this first trimester of constantly queasiness, puking and backache
And been overthinking lately. As some mom-to-be "feel" for their pregnancy, but I'm not feeling anything about it nor the connection except for the puking, backache etc. It makes me feel bad about it at times too.
In the beginning I thought, perhaps after hearing the heartbeat I'll be more convinced and start to "feel" connected to it. But after hearing the heartbeat, I don't feel excited at all. Is this normal? I'm turning 9 weeks tomorrow. Is it too early to feel the connection with the fetus?
And worst thing worst, my colleague had a miscarriage a month before I conceived
I had to let my office people know my pregnancy so I don't have to carry any heavy loads.
Super awkward
Very lost
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