when I found out that I am pregnant, I really can’t believe it. I thought I was unable to conceive due to my age 40s. I found out when I’m 5weeks on 8/6 and it’s a healthy baby with heartbeat. Not till my 2nd ultrasound 8/7, on 3/7 I dreamt of having my menses and when I woke up I feel slightly pain on my stomach so I went to the toilet and there’s a bit of yellowish discharge.
The very next day evening the discharge turns to pinkish brownish and I’m worry so I went to KK. The doctor took awhile to scan and I ask the doc is there anything wrong. She said she was unable to find the heartbeat and my heart sank. Another doc came in and ask me if I was alone at that time or with companion I say I’m alone. Then I know it’s not a good news.
I seek for 2nd option and the result is still the same. I ask the doctor since when did the heartbeat stop and doc mention they wouldn’t know. And the 3rd day I’m bleeding and went back to KK as I’m not having any heavy bleeding or pain I was ask to go home and wait for my next check up which is on 8/7 to decide how I want the miscarriage to be done. Maybe my baby don’t want me to suffer. I couldn’t wait for that day, one day before I’m having tummy pain and the pain is unbearable. So I was thinking to go to KK again, while I was in the toilet I felt a lot of blood coming out and there’s something dangling there . I’m not sure if it’s the tissue that I pass out as out of sudden I was unable to react and I couldn’t see my baby so I flush it down the toilet. And when I went to the KK the doc did a scan and say they don’t see the baby anymore.
Till now I still feel the guilt to my little angel baby.
The very next day evening the discharge turns to pinkish brownish and I’m worry so I went to KK. The doctor took awhile to scan and I ask the doc is there anything wrong. She said she was unable to find the heartbeat and my heart sank. Another doc came in and ask me if I was alone at that time or with companion I say I’m alone. Then I know it’s not a good news.
I seek for 2nd option and the result is still the same. I ask the doctor since when did the heartbeat stop and doc mention they wouldn’t know. And the 3rd day I’m bleeding and went back to KK as I’m not having any heavy bleeding or pain I was ask to go home and wait for my next check up which is on 8/7 to decide how I want the miscarriage to be done. Maybe my baby don’t want me to suffer. I couldn’t wait for that day, one day before I’m having tummy pain and the pain is unbearable. So I was thinking to go to KK again, while I was in the toilet I felt a lot of blood coming out and there’s something dangling there . I’m not sure if it’s the tissue that I pass out as out of sudden I was unable to react and I couldn’t see my baby so I flush it down the toilet. And when I went to the KK the doc did a scan and say they don’t see the baby anymore.
Till now I still feel the guilt to my little angel baby.
