Hi dear (costa) & all friend
Let me share my story with your first.
on Feb/06 I know that I was carry twins baby. The delivery date will be on 22/10/2006. But doctor advice me that the change for premature was high. I was preparing and hope wont happen on me. But....
on 14/8/06 5am, I was not feeling well and feel stomach pain, feel like going to delivery, but my hubby say wont so soon cos only 7.5month only. But we still go and look our doctor, 7.30am, unfortuanally my doctor say, being open 3cm. need to admit hospital immedially. When I reach hospital, was delivery on 11am. I was delivery by normal and my 1st twins 1.51kg & 1.19kgonly. I was so worry when I saw them after that, their body organ was not mature and need the oxygen support cos they cant breath themselves.
When my hubby bring me to ICU, I was cry cos They was so small as I never expect it. They was so weak, I was so angry on myself why never take care myself and let them come out so early. During the 1st month, I went there every day, and cries when look at them, I got no brave to touch their hand too...And doctor always told us must prepare it cos our baby was too small and lungs function was not stabil. I was so hate of the doctor...
They was a lot of things happen during the first month, my 2nd twins always forget to breath and always in emergency case, 1st twins had blood in brain (2nd grade), lung infection too. I dont care the old people say during the month cant cry, if not, will become blind when old, but I dont care. I just hope I can bring them home, finally doctor say my 1st twins ( terry) can go back first cos the weigh gain at 1.55kg, I bring my terry back, but..next day, I bring him back to hospital again because he dont want to drink milk and his breath was very weak, his face turn to purple colour. He go and meet his brot again. They all say twins want to go back together.
From day onward, I start stay in the hospital to take care them, they was the hard time during my life3, in the hospital I can see a lot of baby there, they was so unhealty.
2nd month,Problem come out again, Doctor say my 1st twins terry was more weak, and he have a lot of problem, exspeacially his lung, he need the oxygen support same with his brother even his weight in 1.8kg...they say bryan can go back if his weight gain 1.5kg,(only 1.2kg). Finally 1/10/06, doctor say Terry lung was stabil and he can breath himself, his blood in brain turn to 1st grade. I was so happy, because bryan the weight hit 1.5kg too. Doctor say can go back tomorrow if everything ok.
But, on the next day, I got the bad news, doctor say bryan got ROP stage 3, Need to do laser, if not he will become blind.....he was so small, only 1.5kg! but he need to do the laser. My brain was blank, doctor told me the chance only 50% he can live if he do the laser cos sometime premature baby they will facing problem which, they in sleep when laser, but they wont wake up. He told me not to worry, he say I had twins, If this case not succesfull, I still have terry. Oh my goodness...
I was discussing with my hubby, I say I wont let bryan for laser, I dont want to lose him, want to bring him home 1st, cos he haven go back to his own house yet...but my hubby say let him do, if we never let him do, he will blind, at least have 50% chance. If not he will blade us when he grow up. So we decide to let him do, I was so worry cos bryan always forget to breath....Doctor ask me whether want to bring terry back or not, but we say want to keep terry at hospital first for waitting for his brother.
on 8/10/06, he was arrange for laser, but, do your know what day was that day? our 1st anniversary. My goodness, why become like that. Bryan went in 2.30pm, we never wait for him there, what we can do is go and pray for him, 5.30pm, we go to the operation room, nurse say , my bryan was sent back to ward(ICU) cos he complete the laser and he wake up himself without the oxygen support. We look at him in ICU, we know that bryan want to follow us back , he was so brave.
on the next day,9/10/06 doctor say bryan can go back. We was so happy, on the day 2 of my lovely son follow us back to their house.
It was so hard time for take care them, every 3 hour need to give milk, they dont know how to suck, what I do is pump the milk out. So lucky that every day I can have 800ml and enough for one day support. Terry drink 40ml, bryan 30ml, Took 2hour for them to finish the milk, Iwas so tired because I dont dare to ask my maid to give them milk, she only help me to do the housework only.
During the 3 month at home, they grow up bit by bit, I notice they drink milk very slow, doctor say their heart got sound, suspect them have heart problem, so we bring them to echo. Luckly they was health, all the organ was health, blood in terry brain also gone.
I was so careful to take care them, even their water for bath also in cooked water, change and change of the milk bottle, they cant take the avent bottle cos too hard, finally I got the brand of Dr.Brown. It was usefull, colic free. and easy sucking when they drink.
Finally now 5 month, terry from 2kg come back now reach 5.6kg ( milk from 40ml to 180ml), bryan 1.5kg now 4.8kg.(milk from 30ml to now 140ml) But I still worry their weight, still think they was small, How your think? Now bryan always cry when he drink milk in half, some time he only finish at 90ml, he will reject the milk, I always force him, sing song , walk aroud, some time can finish but some time not too. What should I do?
Now they was taking similic LF, cos my milk only enough for once a day only, some time not enough too, they dont like the breastfeeding, always cry when i give them, so I stop it.
Actually, I was give them similic neosure as for them to gain weight faster, but they always vomit or burp little bit in the mount after 1hour, and they will start cry, after I wipe off their milk in the mouth, they will stop crying. Do you have such problem too? so doctor ask me to change to LF which without lactosa. Now they ok, no such problem again. But their weight was go up slow, I afraid they not enough nutrition as Lf without Lactosa, What should I do now?
Ok , chat till here, my 2 baby wake up, Thank for listening my story.
Have a nice day.
...sound horrible hor... keke
