Hello mummies to be.
To start off, i would like to say that i am possibly preg with my number 4.
I have an elder child in pri sch, and i have a pair of twins who are 1 yrs old via ivf.
I have been spotting for a week now, and i casually told by dh tat i would like to test for preg as this spotting is on and off. I tested it today and bingo, its positive.
I kind of closed shop already, and just last Sat, I went to the IVF ctr to dispose my 7 embbies. I was very sad to dispose it, but I was thinking it will be too exp to have another child.
The irony is tat this time round, I got naturally preg. I tried for sooo many years aft my first born was born but I had miscarriages, empty sac, ectopic, and finally did an ivf to conceive the twins. It is like it really is God's plan for us to have another one.
Thus this has raelly taken us by surprise.
I am now flooded wif apprehention, worry, and joy. Though i waited for a long time to conceive a bb, and now this one, I am so worried I am unable to cope.
Financially is a strain too. Wif 4 kids, and i dun work. I told my hubb that if the spotting means its a natural miscarriage, then we will let it be. But if it is ok, shd we keep the bb??
As much as i wld like to, i find it diff to manage the time (esp with the one yr olds) and to teach and guide an older child.
I feel so down (though i shd be happi and blessed). I never expected i will get preg on my own without help, aft all I tried for so many years.
I know it sounds crazy tat i would want to take away a life, but I am in a moment of confusion rite now. I jus need a listening ear. I have been thru like all of u before, wanting and waiting for a child. But alot of worries fill my head now, like there is no more rm for my bb to sleep in (as I already have 3), my saloon car cannot fit another one v comfortably esp as I hav a maid to help out. Also the education and health care that comes wif a new bb will def set us back financially.