Hi sisters,
Sorry no baby dusts to share. Unfortunately, it's a BFP for me. I know I'm sad but somehow all my feelings are numb & can't really cry it out.
Have been rather busy at work too, was in a meeting when i received the clinic's call, and after that I had to rush out a report. I guess life goes on and just have to accept it.
Part of me still wants to believe that they are there, hoping for a miracle. I told the bad news to my husband, my mother & my husband told my in-laws. My husband has really comforted me, and i can feel that he is also disappointed, but I'm so thankful that we have each other. He says that we have tried our best and committed it to God, so we should not have any regrets.
My in-laws said that I must be very sad & told my husband to comfort me. I'm also touched that their first worry is about how i feel. My mother, as usual, reminded me of her repeated negative tests when she was pregnant, which bring me some stubborn hope, but i think the technology nowadays has improved, so it is quite unlikely.
I don't have any signs of spotting yet, though i have transparent, watery discharge. My nipples are still sore... I still feel very much like there is hope, but i guess i should face reality soon.
Was told to wait for menses to arrive... Does anyone know usually how long does it take to come? I think when it comes, i will finally be able to cry it out, and make plans for the next steps.