Dear MK,
Thanks for your encouragement, actually I tried clomid for almost a year as I was in Japan and then injections to make me ovulate, I got pregnant twice actually but was miscarriage at 7 weeks, all w/o even seeing any heartbeat, HCG was very low and the second time, the foetus just stopped growing. Tried IUI 3 times, and then finally go for IVF, lots of money and times and of course patience, the waiting and waiting is the killing part, I kept praying but somehow all these just gets into me, I guess kinda of sad now but I will not give up. Maybe I thought I might be a bit too impatient or too stress up like everyone of us here. My cousin was married for 8, 9 years and now she is pregnant, I think she did not do anything but just leave it to god. I had alot of questions, why me, why me, pressure from parents, pressure from every where and especially facing my husband, his sperm is perfectly normal and each failure, I cannot help by telling him sorry and sorry again. Sorry girls, just too depressed and no where to spill it out, none of my friends or family know about all these treatment that I seek so of course none to tok too, glad to find this forum but also sad to see so many of us facing this problem which many others can just get pregnant anytime they want. Thanks for giving a chance to voice out my misery.