inbetweenmum
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I cannot take the stress at work, coupled with the stress of having 2 young kids. I break down every now and then. However, i'm so scared to quit without a job in this pandemic. Anyone facing this dilemma too?
I cannot take the stress at work, coupled with the stress of having 2 young kids. I break down every now and then. However, i'm so scared to quit without a job in this pandemic. Anyone facing this dilemma too?
Thanks for all your replies. I just got back to work 2.5 months ago after maternity leave ended and it has been non-stop stress. I have feedback to my boss that I'm finding it hard to cope but i'm not getting much support from him. He expects me to be on the ball as though i never went on leave. I have tried to catch up on the 4months of ML with OT every night. I'm even losing sleep over the mountain of work that is pending. I don't know how long more i can sustain.
I hardly have any time to spend with my family on weekdays. Sometimes, i don't even have the energy to talk to my husband and I snap at my kids (they are only 2.5yo and 6mo). On weekends, I have to sneak in pockets of time to work too.
My parents have been helping out. I can send my kids over if i need to. But i feel terrible that i cant even spend time with them on weekends because i need to do my work. It's really eating me up inside.
The rational thing to do is to secure a job before i leave. But there has been no response so far. Every other day, i just break down while at work (luckily i'm still wfh).
Thanks everyone for your comments. It makes me feel better that I can release some of the stress here. In the beginning, I was still hesitant about leaving this job that I've been in for 6 years (inertia due to familiarity). But the work has since piled up to an extent I can no longer cope and my boss is not supportive. I guess I cannot expect him to understand my personal struggles. So I have decided to leave. I'm actively looking and honestly I have no idea how long it will take for something to come along in this climate. But I have set a deadline for myself to tender (with or without job). Even if no job comes along in the short term, I get to spend this time with my babies.
I (and my husband) cannot stand this zombie that I've become since returning to work. I have no bandwidth to deal with anything outside of work. I have no energy to even care if my 6mo baby is eating/drinking well (I just tell my mum to do what she needs to do). I don't know when his diapers run out. I don't know when my #1's preschool is closed for training. I don't care if my husband falls sick. I'm consumed by my deadlines and my neverending work.
Sometimes I even wish I'll fall sick so I have a legitimate reason to just quit without thinking so much. I honestly don't like this person that I've become.
I've tried taking leave but I end up working on my leave days because that's when no one will come and bother me about ad hoc crap and I can do my BAU stuff.
I guess I already know what I need to do. I just needed some reassurance that leaving my job is not the end of the world esp with 2 kids. Sigh.
I cannot take the stress at work, coupled with the stress of having 2 young kids. I break down every now and then. However, i'm so scared to quit without a job in this pandemic. Anyone facing this dilemma too?