I think during this period of time, everyone is sort of doing 2 -3 persons job in an organization due to headcount freeze.I cannot take the stress at work, coupled with the stress of having 2 young kids. I break down every now and then. However, i'm so scared to quit without a job in this pandemic. Anyone facing this dilemma too?
Thanks for all your replies. I just got back to work 2.5 months ago after maternity leave ended and it has been non-stop stress. I have feedback to my boss that I'm finding it hard to cope but i'm not getting much support from him. He expects me to be on the ball as though i never went on leave. I have tried to catch up on the 4months of ML with OT every night. I'm even losing sleep over the mountain of work that is pending. I don't know how long more i can sustain.
I hardly have any time to spend with my family on weekdays. Sometimes, i don't even have the energy to talk to my husband and I snap at my kids (they are only 2.5yo and 6mo). On weekends, I have to sneak in pockets of time to work too.
My parents have been helping out. I can send my kids over if i need to. But i feel terrible that i cant even spend time with them on weekends because i need to do my work. It's really eating me up inside.
The rational thing to do is to secure a job before i leave. But there has been no response so far. Every other day, i just break down while at work (luckily i'm still wfh).
It's never end of the world. God always gives up options and opens opportunities to us. You just got to embrace the change.Thanks everyone for your comments. It makes me feel better that I can release some of the stress here. In the beginning, I was still hesitant about leaving this job that I've been in for 6 years (inertia due to familiarity). But the work has since piled up to an extent I can no longer cope and my boss is not supportive. I guess I cannot expect him to understand my personal struggles. So I have decided to leave. I'm actively looking and honestly I have no idea how long it will take for something to come along in this climate. But I have set a deadline for myself to tender (with or without job). Even if no job comes along in the short term, I get to spend this time with my babies.
I (and my husband) cannot stand this zombie that I've become since returning to work. I have no bandwidth to deal with anything outside of work. I have no energy to even care if my 6mo baby is eating/drinking well (I just tell my mum to do what she needs to do). I don't know when his diapers run out. I don't know when my #1's preschool is closed for training. I don't care if my husband falls sick. I'm consumed by my deadlines and my neverending work.
Sometimes I even wish I'll fall sick so I have a legitimate reason to just quit without thinking so much. I honestly don't like this person that I've become.
I've tried taking leave but I end up working on my leave days because that's when no one will come and bother me about ad hoc crap and I can do my BAU stuff.
I guess I already know what I need to do. I just needed some reassurance that leaving my job is not the end of the world esp with 2 kids. Sigh.
Hi MummiesI cannot take the stress at work, coupled with the stress of having 2 young kids. I break down every now and then. However, i'm so scared to quit without a job in this pandemic. Anyone facing this dilemma too?