Whether it's an all natural drug free birth, natural with epidural, assisted birth or c section, at the end of the day we just want our babies to be out safe and sound. Doesn't make any of us less of a mother! So you're not missing out any important part of motherhood. The important part is whereby we love and care for the kids and watch them grow into fine adults.
Anyway how does GA feels like when you wake up? Did the pain shock you? I must prepare myself too. C section with epi is also not for faint hearted people like me. My boy also almost ended up with c section because he was deemed too big for my pelvic. Heng last minute his growth stopped! Estimated 4kg too. But only 3.5kg when delivered..