lots of posts to catch up from yesterday.. but need to pour my sorrows now.
did a birthday bash for my mum yesterday and relatives, my PILs, SIL and one of my bestie was invited. at the party, aunties were asking why am i still not pregnant. i smiled & replied saying 好的东西是值得等待 & managed to brush them off. my bestie saw my SIL eating ice cream away and asked me, how come she is eating ice cream during 1st trimester? replied her saying my SIL doesnt care, she eats whatever she likes.
have been thinking of this today. why is life so unfair? i've been controlling my diet (ie. no cold food and drinks, lesser red meats, etc), taking lots of meds (western & TCM), taking care of myself during 2www and yet my 肚子不争气. everyone was eating and laughing loudly yesterday, i was the only one who keep saying 'this cannot eat, that cannot drink'. SIL's #1 was unplanned, #2 after 2-3 mths of TTC, #3 got it once she planned it. she can go pulau ubin cycling with her #1 while she was in her 2nd trimester with #2. played roller coaster and climbing over the fence, etc while preggie with #3 now. never ever control diet, eat all the liang food and drinks. i feel sad for myself.