Sweet mummy, so sorry to hear about your loss. I'm not gonna say stay strong. We are all human, give yourself time to give in to your feelings, allow yourself to be sad, disappointed, frustrated, angry even, let it all out, cry and wail if you have to. And then when you are done grieving, recover from it and try again. Above all, just know at the back of your mind that miracles can happen. Even when you don't believe, even when you are discouraged, even when it is practically impossible. Most importantly take good care of yourself. Hugs.