i am finally home from work! siangjiao..you're not alone in busting deadlines. i just wrote a very apologetic note to my client explaining why i am delaying her so many x...feel very bad but like loke, stare at the screen and mind goes - - - ...
abt the blues, nat..and charmisg..i am hit left right centre with it. just cried for an itsy bitsy reason the other day..and feeling very low. it's scary actually. you feel like you are losing your personality and sense of control. it's almost like i've to fight this sense of despair. when you do a search on prenatal depression, it is then that you realise it is a condition that almost no one really talks abt but it is very real. even the "experts" are acknowledging that not enough is being done to address it. I am not saying I am a clinical case already but I certainly feel I am bordering that at times and it's vexing, tiring...futile to try to wrest control of the lowly feelings. For me, I think it is also set off in part by the earlier scare (spotting, bed rest ordered)..and the constant company of nausea. from being someone who's active at work etc, i am now almost a prisoner most times, at home. i can barely step into the office cos it is just not convenient for me to be constantly puking and i feel absolutely tired.
abt MCs..i think if you just tell your gynae you are not up to it, she will give you a blanket cover of 1 month. that way, whichever day you utilise / don't utilise, just inform HR to perform deductions. it's for this reason that i decided to tell some of my clients and my colleagues the reason behind my absence. only when they know, will they begin to rally behind you...
haha, and if you bothered to read so far, the reason too i love this forum now is that it really makes me feel all the more normal and it does bring my blood pressure down. i am sure we will make it but i just wished the journey wouldn''t be so tough!