30th Dec 2008
I have passed 6 days of Complete BedRest at Home...It was so good to have friends coming over and Mummy and MIL taking care of me while I stay in horizontal position...
Toady Feeling some cramps again...Didn't dare move around even to get water to drink today...Kinda worrying..Maybe wanna go see Dr. Lim tmr, to reassure that everything will be fine. Cont'd taking the Medicine, Adaluit, to control Contractions... Tmr is New Year's Eve, every year will be celebrating with Friends, R & R countdown with BBQ or Picnic...This year can't join them..So sad... But John came back with Good News!!! They are coming over my House to celebrate the Countdown with me, they have booked the BBQ Pit I heard, but willing to forsake it and PotLuck to celebrate with me at my Hse...So Nice...Made John pack the hse up and buy the drinks required for Tmr's Party...
End this day with some Hard Contractions and Cramps after bath...went sleep immediately and hope the pain will go away....
31st Dec 2008
Felt like I wet my pants whilst sleeping... knew at once that is the legendary "Water Bag Burst"!!! Wake John up. told him..quickly changed and called Dr. Lim to tell him, his advice is to admit myself immediately to KKH and tell them he is my Gynae. Time is about 6.30am, whilst waiting for John to drive the car over to the lobby, another huge leak of water again...Changed again and John quickly walked me down to the car...
On the way to KKH..nothing but Anxiety Anxiety Anxiety...Is Baby coming now??? I prayed to God...Whatever is his plan for me, I'm gonna take it with lots of courage...
I was wheeled to the Delivery Suite straightaway after I told them that my Water Bag Burst at the 24hr Women Clinic. The MO checked me and confirmed that I was 6 cm dilated... I started to bleed (The legendary "Show of blood" before labour kicks in)... The doctors dicussed, and they came to conclusion that, they will still want me to keep baby inside my womb for as long as possible. Proceed to scan me to see my baby's position to make sure it is not breeched, then to do another Detailed Scan to see if I still have enough water for baby to stay inside...also to see her weight/size/organs etc..They checked with Dr. Lim on my History (They knew Dr. Lim well, as he has been in this line for donkey years and used to be in KKH when he was young, thus mid-wives and staff nurses mostly knew him, they say he is a doctor who likes to dress himself smartly, of cos la, heard he is all "branded" de).
I was put on Ventolin Drip again and one 10mg Adaluit per 15 mins for 4 times in a row...20 hours in the Delivery Suite... On and Off with Contractions Pain coming in...Mum and Dad came in the hospital at about 9 am in the morning, waiting to see if I will be delivering soon. They waited past Lunch hours, but Doctors were still trying to control my Labour. The time was so difficult to pass...After Dinner, I was having more contractions, The MO checked me again, and I was dilated to 7cm, the doctors discussed again and decided to continue to hold on to delivering of my baby. 8 pm and the pain was so intense...They put me on 90mls of Ventolin Drip and more Adaluit tablets...I was shivering badly, like going mad and I can't breathe... They quickly turn it off as my Pulse rate shot up to near 160, like gonna die liao...
Off the Drip and I was feeling the contractions badly again...This time they say I can use the Laughing gas to relief the pain,i asked for Epidural, but was not allowed...They say if last resort is to deliver the baby, they want it Fast..With Epidural, I won't be able to push fast and baby will be distress...
Quickly used the laughing gas, It won't take away the pain, but it makes me "high" and forget about the pain temporary...I genna the side effects of using laughing Gas...Vomit like Mad for 2 hours..makes my contractions pain worst with all the vomiting...decided i won't take another sniff of it in my whole life again...
10+pm, Mum and Dad, Baby's God-ma-to-be, Ah Lian and Uncle Tan arrived and waiting outside, thinking I might deliver anytime. I dunno what time they arrived though...
11+pm... Contractions getting worst, Doctor checked me again, I was 9 cm dilated. She said I can start trying to push...as I complaint that I can feel baby trying to push her way out, and I extremely felt like I wanna Fart and pass Motion, but all stucked...I wanna break down and cry... Few Mins later, she came in and ask Nurse to feed me Adaluit pills again, she said she had consulted her Senior Team and they all decided that they still want me to keep baby in the womb for as long as I can..be it only an hour or 2...Baby wanna rushed for the 1st Baby of the Year, but Too Bad.. Not allowed by Doctors...The pain was KNNz unbearable, the medicine did not stop the contractions at all... I was so out of my mind, I keep asking for Epidural, or C-section...(knowing that it will be 100% rejected)...
1st Jan 2009 (New Year 'sDay)
The next 2 hours, Contraction pain was unbearable..I heck-care and start pushing with my baby...It's just normal body reaction..I can't help it...so I let baby push whilst I dun hold back...Every Contraction that comes in, the pain is so unbearable that I have to scream a little out, like "Ahhhhhhhhhhh...ahhhhh" Deep breathing doesn't help also. John has to grab my hand everytime the contractions are here... All I can hear is him asking me to "Breathe In..Ok..Breathe Out"...One time, he went away, and I almost cry as the contraction came and he was not around...Maybe he gan jiong & went smoke or toilet or update those waiting outside..I forgotten...
2.00am...One young Mid-wife came in, checked my dilation and she says she can feel baby's head already...I keep asking, can I deliver now? Can I push? The baby's doctors, some other nurses and a Gynae all ready standing around me...I think the room was filled with 6/7 people, all waiting for the MOMENT... With John and the Mid-wife's help...I started pushing real hard. Johnson has his hands on my left thigh and my head to help me arched, and the right leg was supported by the mid-wife and myself...
Everytime the contractions came in, about every 10 seconds, i gotta close my mouth and just push and push, each contractions, I can change breath and push like 3 times......lots of commotion, lots of "You can do it - Ni Ke yi de" by John..all i can hear is his voice and the mid-wife's scolding to ask me dun open my mouth and make noise, cos if I make noise, i won't have strength to push. With about less than 10 times of pushing with close mouths, I can feel her head stucked at my vagina, the pain was undescribeable. My Anus was like gonna erupt too, and I start screaming, "How how, the head is stuck, very pain very pain"... Mid wife said immediately, " Now I want u to push really hard whilst we cut u, baby will be out!" Another 3 more pushes...and I can feel baby is out with gushes of warm liquid... John say he witnessed she "flew out like rocket" and 6 hands were getting ready to "hope" her...Time was 0210 Date 1st Jan 2009...Baby is 29 weeks and 2 days old (MY NEW YEAR BABY)
John didn't get to cut Baby's cord, as everyone was in rush to get her into the warmer immediately..i didn't even get to see her face..straightaway she is brought over to the cot that has warming effect..(BTW, I forgot to mentioned that The air-con of the room has to be OFF when I was delivering, as they dun wan baby to have a suddeen drop in tempearture when she comes out..she has to stay warm)...I keep asking , why baby was not crying...and until about 30 seconds later, they cleared her mucus and she cried and cried..softly...there and then, I felt relieved. Next I have to "deliver" my placenta, such a big piece of bloody thing it was, cannot imagine it inside me...The mid wife slowly pull it out, and I am not allowed to push...John has to follow the baby team to NICU...I'm then left to wait to be stitched back...I was not stitched yet and about 0230, I felt like peeing... i asked the nurse, she said it is good that I wanna pass urine..so she gave me a Bedpan, at first I was reluctant, I was afriad of the raw cuts...But, alas couldn't help it, so I just pee...Nurse said I did a great job...cos alot mummies never dare pee on the 1st day of delivery and I managed to pee alot...Wahahaha
Doctor came in and stitched me...whilst doing so, she explained that my next baby, will be high chance of Pre-term again...so I have to be really cautious...I was given 6 stitches. 4 for the cut and 2 for the tear...I was thinking, all I want is my girl to be well soon...next baby, will think about it later...
3.00am...John came back from NICU and after annoucing the arrival to my Mum and dad and also Ah Lian and Uncle Tan, who were still waiting anxiously outside...he suddenly complaint he is feeling very very tired...if he can go home. He was with me throughout the 20 hours ordeal, can guess he really tired...As I will be pushed to the ward soon, I asked him to go back loh...I felt so light and relieved now..suddenly I felt my tummy became small...I cannot imagine, I am a MUMMY now...It's really not easy....