haha, yes, ruffles,
A colleague told me that she suffered 10 hours of labour pains in the labour ward, and was wheeled into the operation for caesarean. She said everybody laughed at her for suffering for nothing. And I've another colleague who was cut to prepare for natural birth, but the baby was too big, so in the end she had to go for caesar. She said everybody got one cut for one birth, but she had two.
I didn't know that after going thro a caesar, we can't be induced - that's new to me. Everytime someone gets pregnant, I learn something new.
Sometimes pregnant women tend to have alot of fears becos we hear horrifying stories about what happened to our friends, or colleagues' wives. You don't scare yourself lah. Usually people who are afraid of this and that might happen have nothing happened to them.
You highlight your fear to your gynae lah. I think when they know your fear, they will be more careful with you. My gynae shared with us a real story about a head for the gynae at some great hospital (can't even remember the name liao) who was over-confident and neglected all the signs that pointed to the fact that the baby was in distress. In the end, the lady had uterine rupture and the baby passed away. So there're actually signs for these things, just that the gynae was negligent.
I had this excessive blood loss after my first caesar, so I told my gynae about it. And the nurses watched over me very closely to make sure I didn't experience the same thing again.
I am also like you - have a great fear of dying in childbirth. Before my last caesar, I actually penned down a letter authorising my kid to inherit all my savings in the bank. I wrote down the amount, and my IC no. in the letter, and gave my kid the letter. I even told her,"If mummy dies in the operation, you quickly go and give this letter to 大姨or三姨. They will know what to do."