aqua
you should try physiogel
mom2nat, grumpus
i am still the same - struggling to put my bb to sleep. nowadays i delegate this job to my maid. i have issues with this. anger issues actually. i dunno why, but i get very angry/frustrated easily when she still dont sleep after eg 1 hr of putting her to sleep. FYI, we only pat. no rock, no sing, no carry, no walk. she can take 1hr or more to go into sleep state. simply wasting my time. so now daytime even on weekends, my maid puts her to sleep.
at night also my maid put her to sleep, then like 2 days ago, bb woke up to play and laff, even though i have scolded her and she knows that im angry, she still sit up after my 100th time of putting her back down. i smacked her few times ok. last time she still will cry. now she laff at me (thighs too fatty issit?!)
i felt so guilty that i smacked her. not that she will remember lah...yesterday i saw her, she so happy to see me (forgot the smacking episode liao)....but i feel guilty lor. why i cannot control my bubbling anger? why i can lie down beside xandall when he was younger and wait for 1 hr for him to roll and get to sleep himself?
i have came to manage my expectations of xandria liao leh, since i know she is a "bad sleeper"....if she dont nap, fine with me, i wont get upset. but i still get angry when it takes v v v long for her to sleep.
that 2 nights ago, finally she slept at 3am liao rite...then i went up from the bed to switch on the fan. immediately when i went up, she woke up...spent another 50mins getting her back to sleep. i sleep with her i v stress. i dun dare to turn from left to right etc "violently". i must do so gently so as not to stir her. then i dun dare to touch her. if she touches me i will slowly extract myself away. coz she will wake up at the slightest sound. even when i change my clothes in the room, she can wakeup from clothes rustling!
sighs sigh sighs
i cannot smack my bb liao, its unhealthy but yet i am struggling with my demons. sometimes i get so angry right, i have images in my head of me smacking her and it gives me instant gravitation. but i only fantasize lor, so as stop myself from doing it really...
i even have nightmares that i was holding her and dropped her onto the floor, the floor was sloping and she rolled very far off and became lifeless when she finally stopped rolling
i think i too stress with her liao. but i have to admit that i have started to love her lots more as compared to eg 3mths ago. now i cant wait to spend "me" time with her lor...
am i confusing everyone??!