mummies,
thanks for all ur concerns.. im really touched.. hapi fifi thanks so much for keeping me in mind despite the fact thatu also going thru alot now.. i hope u are doing well gal.. ecookie, thanks lots for concerning also though u have a lil bb on hand to handle.. CM, thanks for offering help, true enough i dun have anyone to rely on here.. that's how pathetic im in a foreign land...im so touched by all ur kind words..
anyway mummies, i have been most tearful these few days.. im really gonna 崩溃...
brought zq to pd clinic yesterday noon and after diagnose and blood test, pd said he was seriously dehydrated coz he vomitted all food & liquid out.. he's rather lethargic and not as active as usual also.. so doc immediately put him on drip for 3 hours.. i stayed by his side and i could sense his insecurity coz he didn't wan to sit on bed, just wan to sit on my lap and took my hand to stroke his legs.. the blood test showed he had slight bacteria infection, but pd said the reaction shdnt be so drastic so we didn't wan to rule out the vomit maybe caused by the fall and hard impact on head... so she prescribed an anti-vomit med, and told me zq's vomitting condition shd be subside within 48 hours, if not then we may need to check on further...
while zq on drip at hospital, i was woried sick abt YA at home, coz my helper couldnt feed him milk at all, he only want me.. so he went on milk strike, didn't even drink a mouthful and kept crying till he was tired and fall asleep.. then woke up again, hungry and didn't want my helper to feed and cried to sleep again.. this ayi is newly engaged and i very worried she couldnt handle YA well, afraid she might not be careful and YA will fall or injured himself esp he knows how to crawl now.. my mind was really luan and helpless.. i duno who can i approach, hugging a weak zq in my arms and thinking about my poor YA at home really broke my hearts...
i was really desperate that i called zq's teacher for help.. and she was so kind that she rushed to hospital at once to help me take care of zq while i went back to feed YA milk as the drip needs to run continuosly for 3 hours, prior to that lots of checking up and tests already took up long hours.. zq was rather unwilling to let me go but i kept assured him i will be back once didi drink his milk.. and his teacher is so kind that she brought along some books to tell stories for him.. i cant thank her more...
when i reached home, my heart was so ached when i saw YA.. he must had cried very pitifully that his eyes puffy and his face is dirty wi all the tear marks.. i quickly changed and washed up then fed him milk and preparing the boys dinner, the ayi duno how to cook their porridge.. sigh..
after im done at home, i called cab to go to hospital but i couldnt get one after calling for cab for 15mins... i was so kanjiong and i received a call from the hospital telling me that zq's drip was done and after assessment he shd be safe to go home.. but the traffic was so bad ard 6pm that i couldnt get a cab.. the teacher suggested to fetch zq back home though i know it's totally out of way for her.. and they waited the cab for half an hour! poor thing.. i felt so paisay towards his teacher... and she told me that zq was feeling very insecure when they abt to leave the clinic.. kept asking "mama where?".. coz i promised i will go back to him.. and when they waited for cab, he kept crying and asking for mama.. teacher assured him but he couldnt stop crying and ultimately fall asleep when teacher carried him... i was teary when teacher shared this wi me... i felt so bad that i didn't go back to him as promised.. im a lousy mummy, i cant even take care both of them well...
and when he back home, he didn't wan my helper to handle him at all.. he only wan me to bath to feed.. i fed him very light portion of porridge and so happy that he didn't vomit! after his dinner, i need to feed YA's milk so i on the dvd and let him watch in the living room, he said he dun wan to watch (which is unusual) and insisted to go to my room wi me.. so i asked him to keep quiet when i feed YA, he did so and lie on bed quietly playing his sleeves, my blankets then ultimately fall asleep.. i was weeping while i feed YA, looking at sleeping zq and YA's contended look of drinking milk.. i feel so blessed that my dear boys still wi me safely after a long stressful day... Zq can back home and sleep on our cosy bed and YA can hv his comfort sucking of milk.. though im totally drained off and still haven eat anything since morning, i still think im very lucky to have them by my side...
this morning went well, he's quite happy and didn't vomit out his breakfast also.. but when i fed him his lunch, he vomitted all! only a small bowl of porridge and he vomitted all.. i was so worried when this happened, coz the doc told me his vomit shd subside by this evening.. if his vomit continue, we may need to sedate him and go for a brain CT scan and this realy freaked me out... i certainly hope zq dun have to go thru this...
just now i weeped again after i put zq to nap and feeding YA milk, coz i recalled how zq reacted when he abt to vomit.. coz i was feeding them in highchairs side by side, zq kept turned to his didi and hugged him, shared his table of toys wi him, then suddenly he pushed didi's highchair away and said “弟弟不要在一起”.. then immediately after this he vomit! i was all teary when i recalled this.. he's such a considerate boy even when he not feeling well.. my eyes all red when i write this now.. i pray hard that nothing serious of zq, he will recover soon.. pls dun let anything bad happen to my kind boy..
