QQ,
Studying is very stressful for me. Because my mom has high expectations. Even when she did not put it in so much words, I can sense and feel the expectations and therefore, towards schooling, I have high expectations of myself. Studying is more stressful for me than working. I can work like siao, doing 17 hours everyday for more than a week but while I can feel stressed out by work, I will never felt as stressed as when I study. I still remember last time in sec, my classmate ask around if we ever felt like killing ourselves, if we ever think about suicide. I've a primary school friend who jumped off a building when she is in secondary school. We are in different schools so lost contact with her.
However, I still love learning. It is crazy. Studying is very stressful for me yet, when I'm not studying, i.e., like now, I felt like I wanted to take a course or phD. I siao liao.