Hi there. Want to share my story.
I am a SLE patient and having a child is not easy for me. I was afraid of complications arise during the pregnancy. I wanted to give up having baby.
I never dreamt that I would conceive last year August. Almost everyday I prayed that God would take charge of my life and not let my medical condition got worsened due to pregnancy. God is good! Throughout the pregnancy, my condition was stable and baby was growing healthily.
Now my little one is almost 2 months old. Within these 2 months, he had admitted to hospital twice. First time was due to his high jaundice level and the second time was an abscess at his anus. He is a brave little one. Through my boy, I can see how God really helps me to go through this tough period of time. I cried when knowing baby's jaundice level was too high. I cried when he needed to go through an operation. But God shows His strength through my little one.
I had broke down in front of my SLE doc. I felt stress because I am the main caretaker. Every time I needed to express my milk, it happened to be his feeding time. When I went out, I wanted to go home ASAP to express my milk. In the end, God has shown me a way to get out of these stress. My friends and my doc had given advices. I believe that God uses them to tell me how to not be so stress.
Giving thanks to Him is never enough. I have to continue to believe there is a purpose for my little one to exist in my life. My boy truly is a gift from God.