Hi Mummies,
very sorry to find all of you here..
We finally went ahead with the termination at 15 weeks due to bad fetal scan results during the 12 weeks oscar scan and CVS.
The results confirmed a pure turner Syndrome.
As the pregnancy already passed 14 weeks while we waited for the detailed CVS results, we were told the only and safest method in Singapore for termination is to go thru an induced labour. This was indeed a traumatizing and painful and long procedure. As i also have a cyst, i have requested my gynae to remove the cyst upon the termination. Not certain if i were strong enough to handle two procedure at one go, i still went ahead.
It seemed like grief and sadness had not caught up with me until i was discharged.
Discharged and now back home on one month hospitalization leave, i realised i started feeling sense of guilt and upset suddenly for no reason. It was not regret as we thought our decision was the "better of both evils". We didn't want to see our baby girl suffer if we carried her to term.
i know it takes time to grief...I miss my baby girl...every night before i sleep and times when i just think, the flashback recurs and tears just well up...i even dreamt of losing my baby in my sleep...the last thing i want to do is to slip into a depression.
Hoping to find solace here and provide any information to anyone who may need to go through this difficult period as we did.
~~God bless and may the strength be with all of you~~
** Also, taking this chance to thank my wonderful hubby for accompanying me through this difficult period of our lives. You have done everything you could - I love you (if you come across this thread <3 <3 <3 ).