sistas, i hate to be a wet blanket but I have no one to talk to ....
i went for BT today, reading was v v v low at 18, was told to do another bT on friday. Its deja vu for me like my fresh cycle.
this journey is so tough for me, we can do all sorts of things just to increase our chances but there is no sure thing. Unlike studies, you prepare yourself you will clear. Unlike work, you control the things you do and yield certain results. In ttc-ing, i do not know what i can do to succeed.
in office today, i still have to laugh at silly jokes, to continue to work. It is only now that i can let my tears roll, it is so painful. I begin to wonder if there is something wrong with me.
i do not wish to enter old age childless but things are not promising and with each passing day, i seem to move closer to this fear. I feel like giving up yet i am indignant, i don't know what to do next ...