Tickles
I believe you'll be a stronger person after each unfortunate experience. Understand from one of you post that you have a daughter, den just tell yourself it was as bad as no having any.
Each time I fail my clomid cycle or IUI, I always reprimand myself for not being a 'whole' woman. Blame myself wat's the point of being a woman when I can't even produce.. As time goes by, I realised after each try, I'm probably too stressed out. Going for holiday din help, pick up lots of new hobbies or attended courses. All with the hope of taking my mind off my work stress.
Remembered doing one of the IUI on my birthday, my boss called me that morning and scolded me for taking MC, saying "Why must you take MC today?". I was like ~ hah? why can't I take MC when I need to do minor procedure? Den he said " What procedure? why must be today?" I kept quite and slammed down the phone.
Den his secretary called me and told me to go back office.. I refused to. Cos she told me that the boss is angry bcos there's no one in charge in the office. He's having some stupid bowling practise, Den one of the manager on leave, another also last minute MC, so I'm the only manager around to take care of the office. I told her to tell the boss to go back to office and take care of it himself. In my heart, I was all prepared to leave the job.
And naturally, he ruined my birthday, and also ruined my chances of conceiving . I'll never forget that day.
I took TCM once, I was a horrible experience cos the amt of med to take in a day is no joke.
Need any help just PM me, more den willing to share. You have given birth once, which naturally means there's still high chance of conceiving. I have ppl telling me after all those failures that sometimes it is just the luck of the doctor, and you fate with the doctor. It is the magical touch of the doctor that perform miracle. To believe or not to believe all up to us. I guess it's the sub-conscious mind of an individual. When we change a doctor whom we have high hopes on, we are more positive in our thoughts and less stressful, in a way I think this helps to relax our mind and body in some way.
I was very hopeful when I first met Dr Loh and until this very day, I still believe in him and will entrust him with the task of my FET in the near future. He gave me hope and realised my dreams and proof me wrong that I can't conceive.
WISH YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR and HOPE ALL YOUR WISHES WILL AND EVENTUALLY COME TRUE ...
Babydust to you...