Qing, be positive! Your bb can feel your emotions & thoughts!
Wendy & Cas, I was induced at 21 wks in first pregnancy as my elder girl has passed on. What can be more painful to hv a fetus born dead in front of me after going thru labour? even till now, I still tear when i wrote this.. Gwen was supposed to be born in aug 2010. She will turn 2 yrs this aug if this unfortunate event did not happen.
I got pregnant again with natural FET in sept 2010 with high hcg with 4 digits.. But had an early m/c...
I did 2nd fresh cycle in April 2011 & delivered belle on 25 Jan 2012... She is 4 wks early.. 5 hrs after delivery, she had a lung infection where she stayed in NICU for 7 days. She has since been bk home last Wednesday....
Prior to Gwen, I took tcm med, went for acupuncture, monitor my Basel temp daily, took clomid, went for a no if scans.. But nv get preg. Dr Loh helped me to grant my wish.. But I ended with 2 m/c.. He didn't give up on me.. After each m/c, he is v careful n sent me for detailed womb check as I scar easily coz A d&c after m/c has risk if scarring my womb..
This pregnancy I requested him to monitor me at closer interval.. Which he did despite that he is so biz.. V v thankful n grateful to him.
Though i hv Belle now, The pain n heartache of losing Gwen will nv go away.. Whenever I visit her at her niche, I m always reminded of the scene where I delivered her.. Cremated her & placed her ashes in the niche.. I hv not visited her since April 2011.. I will bring Belle to visit her elder sister after her full month..
Some of us are fortunate, one try & succeeded. But some like me, hv to go through heartaches & losses before we can carry our bundle of joy in our arms. We can only pray & be positive.. The day where we become mummy will come.. As long as we dun give up..