Hi Blue, thanks for your advise and glad you reply me
. Actually Prof Wong did suggest i go for a 2nd fresh cycle as i am 34 this year so i can keep the frozen embryo for future use but i have discussed with my hubby and both us of thought of just proceed with this FET first. Prof Wong said during my first IVF i have 11 good eggs and all 11 of them have eggs and all the phases when so well (Not to mention the panic attack tingy) but ended i am still not preg..haiz..so it means we only need one good egg and a bit of luck to be successful.
I had the transfer last Thursday, 4 April is only 11 days wait, shorter than the 2weeks for fresh cycle but i have this panic attack the moment the embryo is transferred in me. I think this panic attacked started during my first IVF, i bleed during the fourth day after transfer can you imagine? so i got into panic mode and eversince that i have this panic attack for the next waiting days till my blood test during the last attempt.
but surprised is that once i tested negative, the panic attack disappeared and i thought i am more mental prepared for this FET but again i got into panic attack! I am so sad because people always said that embryo will not implant on a nervous womb..so i dont have too much high hope this round
I did all sort of things to relax myself, like listen to music, meditate with breathing technique, i cant drink milk as i will have diarrhea but it all didnt work for long, my hubby also helps to massage me as the panic attacks makes my whole body aches and muscle tension. Its all in the mind, tomorrow i am going down to CHR to get this sleeping pill which Prof Wong prescribe for me but only give me 2 pills LOL but hope it helps me to get some sleep as i have been having sleepless night. And i am going back to work tomorrow to keep myself distracted even though i am still on hospitalised leave.
Sorry for the long message because it makes me feel so much better to release my trouble here..thanks for hearing me..