I’m not being courageous….I’m just being practical and realistic

. Plus, I don’t like to be kept in suspense. More so, if I tested BFP and spotting comes along, I’ll know what’s the next course of action to take instead of guessing away. I guess having failed soooo many times, I’ve become more Zen. Instead of always sinking into depression and asking “What and Why” with no answer, I’ve learned to take things a lot easier and will instead, read up and find out more what I can do better in preparation for the next cycle. And for every cycles, I’ll always have a ‘retreat’ plan if the cycle don’t work out. I’ll binge eat/drink all the COLD stuffs especially I’ve abstain for so many years while TTC so that’s the only window period I’ll indulge, and I’ll be back fighting. Cry if you need to coz I still cry at every failed cycles. But you gotta pick yourself up fast again and embark on the journey.
Well, I guess even if your spouse is around, only we ourselves can overcome our own emotions and move on from it. Ironically, I’m thankful for IVF that really tunes my mindset and matures me along the way. Our brain is a very powerful tool. So don’t let negativity get into you. Read some positive books, it will help you a lot.