Jen: Don't be despair. Relax. Must keep pouring positive energy into yourself. I always believe if it is meant to be yours, no one will be able to take it away from you. Take me as an example.
Incident 1: I dated hubby for almost 8yrs, I decided to break up with him cause I do not want to marry him just for the sake of being together long enough. But after 2 yrs, we actually got back together and got married. So after 1 big round, we are still meant for each other.
Incident 2: Gynae told me in June 2009 that my fibroid is in a position which might push baby out if I get preggy and we actually scheduled for ops in Dec 2009. But in the meantime, can continue to try for baby. We did alot of things like timed BD, timed ovulation but every month just hit the RED. In Oct 2009, we decided to heck it since it is so near to my ops date in Dec 2009. In Nov 2009, the BFP came on the test kit. I was so surprised.
Incident 3: I bleed and spot throughout the 3 entire trimester. No bed rest was given to me. Even when I lie down and stand up, blood will just trickle down my legs. Got so worried that I would lose the baby. But I did not.. baby was borned premature at 36 weeks at 3.58kg. Big and strong.
So you see.. if it is meant to be yours, God will give it to you when he feels you are ready. Think on the bright side.. you would rather GOD give it to you and let you have the baby fully than to let him give it to you and later take it away from you even before you give birth to it.
So stay strong and look on the bright side.