Hi Ning, I just said a little prayer for you before typing this. Continue trusting in Him, I know it's not easy. But I remembered when I was doin the ivf, I keep telling myself that no matter what grades my eggs are or whatever state i'm in, if God chooses to bless me with the babies, it will happen no matter what circumstances I may be seeing with my own eyes.
And truly, God is good and always faithful. He has answered my prayers and blessed me with more. I remembered telling God, let every egg count, and let me not be discouraged by the number of eggs or whatever, but help me to remember the finished works at the cross.
Hope this encouraged you. Sorry am not so good with words but I hope it cheered you up. *hugz* my dear. GBU!