Hi Cherri, Highheels and deron!
nice to hear from other SAHM. I had been working ever since I graduated, so when I stopped working for so long (going to 5mths soon) I not used to it. I feel emotional and a bit 'lost'. I koe my responsible is to baby now, as in my job is to take care of him. But sometimes I feel like I got no purpose in life like tat (i koe its wrong to feel this way).
I appreciate the bonding with my child, last time he was not close to me and dun even want me to feed him milk. I guessed was becoz when working I only see him after 7pm after work then he sleep at 9pm. Not much time to get to koe each other. But now after spending 5mths with baby, its very touching to hear him calls me MaMa..even when I walked out the room, he will look for me and calls me. However at times, its kinda irritating lah..coz so 'sticky' to me. Dun even want my husband to feed him, only want me.
I can't go back to work until baby is bigger, the childcare near my place only accepts > 18mths old. In addition, i also worry if I put him in childcare he be the 'smallest' child there and other kids may bully him. Worse, he still cannot talk well to express his needs. Therefore I plan to put him in childcare after he > 21mths or bigger when he can talk and express himself (else I worry he kanna bully dun koe how to say out).
My main concern is if I take a break too long from work, I worry that it be hard to justify to the potential employer etc. why i took such a long break from work. I also worry that my "value" will drop.
Its really a blessing to take care of our own child hor..I rem when I was a pri sch kid, both my parents were working. I was a 'latched key kid', so I went home after sch to an empty home and felt lonely.I wonder if my baby will feel this way next time.
So like deron I also feel at times happy, but at times depressed. At night I cannot sleep after both baby and husband had slept. I will go and sit in the living room and stare into space (becoz there is nothing to watch on TV), kinda feel lonely myself (but tonite I am surfing the net and typing this).
Tell u gals, this week on Mon my baby suddenly stand up and walk by himself without my help. I begin to bring him to the playground in the evenings. After the trip not only he sweat, i also sweat! very tiring. Cherri, I brought him to foodcourt to eat, but he dun wanna sit in the highchair and make a lot of noise wanna go down. I brought him to the community library near our place but he took the books out from the shelves and made a mess of it. Made me very paiseh, had to quickly carry him out. I also think he bully me. If its my mum, he dun dare to even make noise in her presence. It is really a challenge to discipline small toddlers. I also shout a lot I realize.
Hope to get to link up with more SAHM too!