Lambi
Well-Known Member
Ladies
Devastating news to share
- a miscarriage..total loss...It was a very gruesome/dramatic experience for me and my hb. (Sorry sorry sorry! for the gruesome details but if you're uncomfortable don't read the 1st 2 paragraph ok? As i really need to get this painful grief off my chest)
Since the last post, the last bleeding got worse as fresh red was seen..so i got my hb to book the doctor at the next town's doc office (20mins drive 1 way) which was open yesterday night abt 9pm so went there, doc was nasty-said can't see/hear anything with a vagina check but he thinks it's m/c and i specifically told him that it's getting worse and if i should be going to the hospital (docs must call the hospital to book the emergency gynae appointment for us cos only they can do that not us normal ppl..so he called and made appointment for next morning(sun)10am and then just sent us home and told me to rest...and call if bleeding/cramps got worse--no choice..went home then upon home, crawled into bed and can't sleep cos pain getting worst..and it comes in waves and i got off bed and as i wanted to open the door..felt a gush of blood just fell on the pad worn between my legs! Screamed and hb woke up to help me get downstairs and upon reaching the toiletbowl gush came another round of bright fresh blood..then i felt a clump of 'thing' slided off me onto my hands! Screamed further..insisted hb to call doc for an ambulance..but then doc refused and asked us to go down in our car again to see him!! Ok then thought that they might hv an ambulance ready there..so we got there, i hardly managed to sit still..cramping very often and i had to take deep breathings. And as hb had taken photos of the bloody mess to show doc..the doc still don't think it's much!!!! Well hello i told the doc 'If you don't think this is much, then how much is much????' I insist that i should go to the hospital as i feel very bad in pain but then he said the appointment is booked in another few hours time..so sent me back home again!!! I was so angry the only thing he can do is gave me a panadol and told me to go home and wait tll we drive to the hospital ourselves in the AM..so all thru the night i was twitching in contractions like cramps and heavy bleeding thruout, at the end the frequency became like every 2-3 mins the contraction pain comes (i think it's like childbirth?) then i went to the toilet for the last time i remembered..a long big thingy mass slided out of me. I knew it was the pacentea + what's left of my poor bb...hb was the one taking the mass out of the Tbowl and we hv since decided to put in a in home made grave later on..
Ok then after this expulsion, the cramping contractions/heavy bleedings miraculously gone...i totally confirmed that it's the last of what i see of my poor bb. So just now the drive to the hospital and upon seeing the nice gynae+ v scan...yes my poor bb is gone. But she said it's likely ard 8-9weeks old..cos i had a 7th week scan and all was fine then if the m/c happens now then the skeleton could be seen but no lor...so it's just pretty small 8-9weeks..So poor bb has not been growing at all..just stopped there at that stage..We were devastated. Both hb and i cried all the way back home driving in the car...3hrs..and at home now too crying...*sigh sigh sigh* It is a difficult time..
Perhaps there was some abnormalities already and fetus can't be really formed good enough hence natural's way of terminating the pregnancy -- m/c? Anyway, though stricken by grief and lotsa questions asking why why why, we will try again next round in another few mths time..i'll take this time to recuperate and rest..
I thank all very very nice fellow ICSI/IVF mummies here..always so encouraging, supportive and strong in my short and nice time here sharing and chatting..hope to see you ladies soon again!!!! Well perhaps i can still pop by to say hi sometimes rite?
Im trying for FET next!!! Anyone any experience in that? Must take suppression not? Is the duration shorter then?
Devastating news to share
Since the last post, the last bleeding got worse as fresh red was seen..so i got my hb to book the doctor at the next town's doc office (20mins drive 1 way) which was open yesterday night abt 9pm so went there, doc was nasty-said can't see/hear anything with a vagina check but he thinks it's m/c and i specifically told him that it's getting worse and if i should be going to the hospital (docs must call the hospital to book the emergency gynae appointment for us cos only they can do that not us normal ppl..so he called and made appointment for next morning(sun)10am and then just sent us home and told me to rest...and call if bleeding/cramps got worse--no choice..went home then upon home, crawled into bed and can't sleep cos pain getting worst..and it comes in waves and i got off bed and as i wanted to open the door..felt a gush of blood just fell on the pad worn between my legs! Screamed and hb woke up to help me get downstairs and upon reaching the toiletbowl gush came another round of bright fresh blood..then i felt a clump of 'thing' slided off me onto my hands! Screamed further..insisted hb to call doc for an ambulance..but then doc refused and asked us to go down in our car again to see him!! Ok then thought that they might hv an ambulance ready there..so we got there, i hardly managed to sit still..cramping very often and i had to take deep breathings. And as hb had taken photos of the bloody mess to show doc..the doc still don't think it's much!!!! Well hello i told the doc 'If you don't think this is much, then how much is much????' I insist that i should go to the hospital as i feel very bad in pain but then he said the appointment is booked in another few hours time..so sent me back home again!!! I was so angry the only thing he can do is gave me a panadol and told me to go home and wait tll we drive to the hospital ourselves in the AM..so all thru the night i was twitching in contractions like cramps and heavy bleeding thruout, at the end the frequency became like every 2-3 mins the contraction pain comes (i think it's like childbirth?) then i went to the toilet for the last time i remembered..a long big thingy mass slided out of me. I knew it was the pacentea + what's left of my poor bb...hb was the one taking the mass out of the Tbowl and we hv since decided to put in a in home made grave later on..
Ok then after this expulsion, the cramping contractions/heavy bleedings miraculously gone...i totally confirmed that it's the last of what i see of my poor bb. So just now the drive to the hospital and upon seeing the nice gynae+ v scan...yes my poor bb is gone. But she said it's likely ard 8-9weeks old..cos i had a 7th week scan and all was fine then if the m/c happens now then the skeleton could be seen but no lor...so it's just pretty small 8-9weeks..So poor bb has not been growing at all..just stopped there at that stage..We were devastated. Both hb and i cried all the way back home driving in the car...3hrs..and at home now too crying...*sigh sigh sigh* It is a difficult time..
Perhaps there was some abnormalities already and fetus can't be really formed good enough hence natural's way of terminating the pregnancy -- m/c? Anyway, though stricken by grief and lotsa questions asking why why why, we will try again next round in another few mths time..i'll take this time to recuperate and rest..
I thank all very very nice fellow ICSI/IVF mummies here..always so encouraging, supportive and strong in my short and nice time here sharing and chatting..hope to see you ladies soon again!!!! Well perhaps i can still pop by to say hi sometimes rite?
Im trying for FET next!!! Anyone any experience in that? Must take suppression not? Is the duration shorter then?
