Dear mummies, I've been MIA for a quite some times, my laptop crashed just before I deliver, the motherboard damaged, service centre said will take another week to repair, thanks to all mummies for the thots n prayers, also thanks a lot to Cassey for helpin me announcing in this thread for Elena's arrival
--Cassey, prince Kyle looks very very cute in the cocoon.. loving it!!
As what Cassey mentioned, I gave birth with emergency C-sect, the timeline is more or less like this as much as I can remember:
06:00 went to toilet, found spotting, wake hubby and call gynae
07:00 reached TMC, wheeled in to 2nd floor, given enema, hb went for admission
08:00 went to labour ward, strapped to machine, dilation 2cm
12:00 had epi shot, nurse mentioned bb's heartbeat's irregular
14:00 gynae came, broke waterbag, also mentioned bb's heartbear irregular, put me on oxygen
15:00 gynae came back, bb's heartbeat still irregular and dropping, he suggested emergency C-sect
15:15 I was wheeled to ops theatre, put under GA
15:59 Elena arrived
During the ops, I woke up from GA, just to find some tubes and something sharp poking my throat, I choked, then I heard my gynae shouting, then I'm out again.. the next thing I know is they're wheeling me out of the operation theatre, not really sure what's going on.. the feeling for the next 48 hours was like half alive for me, I do not know what time and who's around, just felt my throat very dry, trying to open my mouth but couldn't talk..
When I can talk, the first thing I asked hubby was 'where's our baby' to which he said she's safe and healthy, she was in NICU and put under oxygen, but I was already out again.. he said he was showing me her pictures as well, but I was too weak to see it..
I felt really bad for not being able to deliver my daughter naturally as planned, and worse, C-sect with epi and GA too, to which I can only fully conscious to see my daughter at the end of the 2nd day, on that 2nd day, I insisted to try on breastfeeding, and worse still, I failed to get any milk or colostrum out, I couldn't even hold my baby properly, both my hands and feet were swollen beyond recognition, my hands were still shaking and my feet couldn't really move..
Until now, no matter what I try my bm supply is really low, each time pumping only gives me about 10-20ml, so pethatic, even without my mum's nagging, I knew that my baby would starve if she depends on my bm alone, so I HAVE had to supplement with formula.. but you know what, I'm NOT giving up on breastfeeding, I may not have much milk, but it's better than nothing, I'll just try my best to give her (by latching or pumping), as much as I can..
Above all, I'm still very grateful that Elena is born healthy, a bit small (she was born at 2.3kg, 48.5cm) but healthy and active too..
Congrats to all mummies who has deliver, and for those who's counting days, wishing you all the best, may you have a smooth and safe delivery..