gracie gal,
tho this is my #2, i sumtx feel stressed and depressed when things are too much for me to handle, so it's natural to feel down and out sometimes. As long as you can pull yourself together, it's fine. Come and join us in the forum to share your concerns and you'll feel better.
mummyo
yeah, the problem is the older ones bring home all the funny germs, so have to be extra careful...
Ginn,
invest in a thermal flask, cos if you're gg to use formula milk in future (not sure if you total BFG or what), you will need the flask anyway. I had my 500ml flask since Uni days, so I din have to buy a new one. But a year back, I found it too big for FM feeds (after I stopped BFG my #1 and relied on FM only) and so bought a 250ml size one from Zojirushi brand. It's small and handy and really light. When I bot it, it cost about $40. Actually, 250ml of hot water is also enough to heat up EBM if your container is not too big. You could consider buying the 250ml if you don't want a big flask.
When your bb is big enough for solids like porridge, you can buy the Thermos brand mug, costs about $20. This is gd enough for keeping the porridge hot. No need to buy dunno what Tiger magic cooker thermos and what not. Those are really big and bulky to carry around.