k date cancelled.
called kkh to find out procedure after a fall, was told to monitor for abnormal behavior and feeding pattern.
my mil thinks i'm the most unfeeling bitch and she's crying.
i hate this. i do everything the whole day and it's my fault. yesit's my fault. i cannot deal with it too but what will crying bring me? i feel so bad. what the friggin hell cry, i do everything, she lau sai, i clean up her, i'm looking after her at night, why cry. she tell me if anything happen to baby, everyone cannot take it. how do you think i feel? i'm already trying so hard, i cannot meet my friends because she has stomach flu, i cannot meet my husband because she fell off the bed. yes even if i don't want to but my mil not helping and crying and telling me what i should do is making me feel so horrible right now. i know about te friggin crib and babies fall all the time, she tells me to put the baby into crib. i fuycking know that what. it's already running through my stupid head. stupid stupid stupid. i feel so stupid. i'm like one of thos estupid mothers who fraek out and post stupid threads like my baby fell off the bed, how.
no actually i was perfectly composed and ready to handle the situation. when baby started bawling, she wanted to grab her so i told her to give me a minute to comfort my own child, i want to hold her. then later, she cried like someone just killed her offspring. for f's sake right? ok i prob broke too many forum rules on being vulgar. sigh.