Hi gals,
Last nite, I cried bitterly by my bed. I has this sudden feeling that my son is entrangled from me! My CL was besides him all the time and my MIL came to my hse everyday, tell us not to carry him so often, let the baby sleep......I'm so sick of so many ppl around! Maybe i dunno how to appreciate, but i rather be with my baby alone! I missed the 2 days in hospital when baby is so attached to me, the nurse pushed him to me all the time and esp in the middle of nite also for breastfeeding...I feel so close to him, now at home, the closeness seems not there....I'm feeling very miserable! Esp when i'm trying hard here to bf, the CL walked in to chk if baby has finished and seems so hurry to carry him away from me, then my MIL will say, got milk or not, no milk, then must give formula milk and never give me enough time to try out BF, most of the times, baby only suck one side and fallen asleep, we must have the patient to wait for baby to wake up and feed him again on the other side...but b4 i could do so, the 2 women seems so hurry to carry him out of my room! Also during breastfeeding, dun understand why my MIL so rude, come in to my room and watch, i feel myself like an animal in the zoo, everyone come watching! So disturbed, so sickening!
Today, when i see my gynae, he can tell im not happy and talk to me alot and cheer me abit, my tears almost roll down again!
After, my hubby talked to the CL and his mother, tell them to let me finish my breastfeeding whenever is feeding time. Whenever baby is hungry, let me breastfeed first...then they seems to understand abit, and my MIL went back home b4 noon, i'm so happy! Today, i have more quality time with my baby, feel so good, so happy.
I really hope my MIL dun come everyday, it's really sickening and fan!!!!!