Hi CL,
Maybe is should start scapebooking? I have dig out all the family photos and wanted to make a family album for the gals.... don't know if i am too insistent in keeping all the memories. A friend's friend who lost her hubby to cancer can't bear to see his photos and keep them all away for a year... for me, i keep digging out what i can, going to my sister, cousin and friends etc for photos.... will do up the album with description on the outings so that it will not be forgotten with time..... Maybe can pick up some tips from you when i am back....
But scapebooking is sure an expensive hobby.....
I laminate the book that hubby's colleague wrote of him so that it is waterproof, will not fade etc........
Hi Cookie,
This same verse has been with me since hubby fell ill..... even non christian friends forward the same message to me...... I had a dream when hubby was rather ill.... i dreamt that i had a fall and could,'t stand up. jesus stood beside me and sretch out his hand. But i keep telling him that my knee hurts and i can't stand. In the dream i focus on my pain and not on his hand...... Coincidentally hubby shared that he was in pain that night and was praying and he also saw God stretch out his hand. But somehow he couldn't hold Hid Hand........... I initially interpret as a positive sign that Jesus is reaching out to us.... Through the whole of hubby's journey, i have always 'interpret' signs as positive signs that hubby will recover so his death is a big blow to me. And the doctors indicated he has 2-3 months in mid nov.... his death occur within one month.......
It is not easy to handle death.... when doctor indicated the life span.... i dare not tell hubby cos i don;t want to affect him. And we are parying so i reject all the bad reports.... But i also don;t want to short change him so that he can fulfil his last wish.......... till date, i still don;t know if i did the right thing by not telling him...my guess is he knows it himself...... However before he goes into critical conditin, he did have his last words to us......
All these questions still remain in my mind if i did right or wrong......
It is a very scary thing to have the doctors telling you that they have no other treatment available.... it's like telling you to go home and wait for death..... then the social worker, the pallative care workers will all come.... they meant as a support group but i find them a hassle.... maybe it's the anger.... no one could offer help but only to tell you to accept it, whether the patient knows of his own condition, how i feel etc..... so i didn;t quite want to talk to them... SIL and i were busy looking for other alternatives, even contacting doctors in USA who may specialise in this area of cancer etc...... So even till now, i didn;t appreciate the social worker, pallative care worker etc.......