Thanks Ronniemini!
Ya, I been thru it. I was initially very depressed. Bcos I was thinking, I just had my 21 birthday only. I am still young, alot of things to accomplish and never would I thought such illness will occur in me whereby I thought usually this illness maybe inherit or history of family members also have. But I was the only one in my family having this illness.
I was lucky to find out early as in my blood cyst (known as chocolate cyst) hasn't burst. It is as large as like 8cm and I thought I am just water retention as I felt bloated. I was immediately sent in for operation 1 week later after diagonised it with ultrascan etc. That was in 2000.
Reoccurred in again, even after I had 3 to 6 mths of hormones injections to prevent menses to come right after operation. But after the last dose of injection, I have to let my menses to come so that I can try to conceive, else I am like having outbreak of pimples, put on weight, hoarse in voice and temper wasn't good too. The blood cyst in me slowly grew bigger until in 2004 which I had another operation when it is about 6cm big.
After the 2004 operation, I was again on 3 mths injection and this time doctor wanted me to try conceived. They said chances are higher after operation. But then, It was quite disappointed every mth when I see my mense came. I knew I wasnt conceived. So the cyst again grew in me, until 2005, it was about 5cm. Thus, I was advised to go for 3rd operation again.
It was a blessing that I was found pregant else I have to go thru my 3rd operation. It is really very distressed, 2 times of operation on the same illness, same wound, same case of infertily. The fact having this illness already lower down the chances to conceive, twice operation really lower most chances of all.
I was very skeptical when TV or ppl talking about getting pregnant, baby, infertile etc. I thought I maybe just give up the thought of having a child of my own. However, I just find it unbearbale to myself to just admit defeat bcos of this illness on me for years.
Sex life become dull, as if doing it for sake of getting to conceive. Thus, I ponder over what can I can within my control. Since having this illness is beyond my control, but I can do alot of things to help my condition better.
Firstly, Admit and accept yourself that you have this illness. Learn to accept yourself so that others will accept who you are. You tends to get angry with others or your partner unintentionally and get real senitive when you feel that others are not accepting who you are and your illness. You feel bad, your partner will be affected as will and feel bad too. The worst feel is when he is helpless when he wanted to help you so much.
Secondly, adopt a regular exercise routine. My hubby and I went to east coast for cycling and jogging every weekends. Eat well, sleep early and put behind the fact you have this illness and make love as if you never had before. Best is to go a hotel stay and do things together like having dinner or movie.
Thirdly, try to relax and do not too stress. Stress from work, physically and mental will also affect. Be patience and dont be too disappointed with every mth outcome and wanted to give up. Most important is believe in yourself and have faith.
Although I am not a christain, but I do believe in have faith in yourself, you will be wonder by its miracle someday.
Sorry if my post is too long ya..just hope to pass on this to anyone who will be of help to them...