Hi sisters,
ER went on smoothy. PTL! As I was alone in the theatre, I would have some quiet time with the Lord. Was initially very mad with my husband for not putting enough effort to change his flight to a later time to Bangkok for work to witness the transfer this morning. However, I felt that it was ok after all as I knew God was there with me and i could have the opportunity to have some quiet time
My bladder wasn't full thus my uterus was vertical and so Dr
Paul had a hard time manipulating the instrument through it. It took a while before I finally see my precious in my uterus on the monitor. I started talking to my precious and told him God is with him. I told God that it is my heart desires to have another child but may His will be done not mine. (I hesitated a while when I said that but ultimately I trust God to know what's best for me and my family) can I really bear with the outcome which is not my desire??..should I say that? I hate myself to have so little faith. God is in charge now.
While lying on bed in the waiting room, doubts, negative thoughts and fear started to develop. I instantly called on God to cast away all that and let me breathe in His grace and peace. It was only then, I started to calm down. Even though this is my fourth time, i'm still anxious and have all sort of mixed feeling.
Thank you sunny and hopewaves for the bible verses. They came in handy for me. Will meditate on them.
Hi Mricky, I stop working this year to go through IVF as my time is running out.
I couldn't use any medisave and no more grant as this is my fourth try
When doc asked if I wanted to abort cycling when I had only 3 follicles in the right ovary and 2 unreachable follicles in the left with slow rate of growth despite maximum dosage ( had 5 jabs daily during stimulation) and took Growth hormone jab daily since august as ER procedure was a great sum since I can't claim, I cried for days but I refused to give up. Even though I knew that if after going through ER there was high chance that there would't be any egg, I still wanted to proceed.
I started acupuncture early last year for my third cycle which failed and had been continuing since then as I just couldn't give up. My physician always shook her head when she saw how badly bruised my tummy was due to the jabs. To me, if I can hold my precious in my arms, all the pain, anxiety and money spent is all worth it. However, I know all things happen for a purpose, I may not know now but I'm just blessed to know Jesus Christ and I think I shouldn't focus so much on my pain.
Sorry sisters, long post and just don't know why so much to say. Pls pardon me...
Oh yes, thank you so much for the encouragement and prayers. Meant a lot to me...