Bluesmurfs, iwontbite2,
Pls be strong. I know how it feels. Few yrs back, when I learnt my husband betray me. I cried almost everyday, the hurt was very raw then. I am a SAHM so my young kids saw me cry. Right now, u give yrself time to grieve over the hurt and cry. After sometime, u will tell yrself where you want to be and what u want to do. Cos grieving too much will weaken yr health n you need to speak to someone who will not judge you and lend a listening ear. You will learn to be stronger and accept what has happened and move on. I am still learning to be stronger but I hv changed compared to 3 over yrs ago. When u accept what has happened, u learnt there are things that u can't control.
By writing in forum and speaking to someone u trust will help you to heal, the process is slow but u must tell yrself that u can overcome it. When the hurt is raw, u don't want to see yr husband at all and will think of divorce. If possible, spend some time apart from yr husband to calm down. You still need a plan what you want to do abt the situation. Btw, divorce is not going to be easy if u don't hv family support esp with the high cost of living in Singapore. I hv thoughts of divorce, mood swings even though my husband stopped after he was found out. Both families know but it was disastrous. My MIL blamed it on me and my family was not supportive. I was depressed and wanted to die so many times. I learnt more abt myself in the process of healing and why my husband betrayed me. Basically I healed on my own and searching for answers on the Internet helped me a lot, I had a friend to talk to as she was in similar situation. She did not judge me like others and was very understanding.
It is a big obstacle to overcome, and you would need determination and will, and know that u can be happy by yrself. I can only encourage both of you to stay strong, never let anyone say that it is yr fault. It is not yr fault, and make your own choice despite what others say including yr family. When u hv cried enough and calm down, that's when you decide to divorce or not. Give yrself and yr husband a chance to talk it out, cos even when u choose to divorce, both of you still need to discuss on child custody, maintenance fee etc. Take yr time to think things through. Also remember you are not alone.