Jo3, your DH is so good to you!
Regarding BF, actually, like most other mums/MTBs here, I wanted so much to do TBF. But in the first week of confinement, I was so stressed out by the CL coming to me every hour or so saying that baby was hungry, and by her comments abt baby needing more and more milk as she grows, how my supply not enuf etc. Think I was also comparing with other babies' feeding patterns and wondering why my gal's feeding habits were so different. The stress certainly didn't help!
It's impt to have someone supportive of BFg to talk to during this time. I was lucky to be able to chat online with a gf who also just had her baby.
On the day when baby was due for PD review, I finally cldn't take it any more, gave in and let baby take FM. I kind of regret that becos at the visit, doc was saying that baby's weight was okay and that if i had been TBFg, then at least i wld know that i was doing fine with TBF.
Anyway, from then on, it was a huge struggle within myself to learn to let go of the idea of TBF, and come to terms and be at peace with the idea of giving however much BM i cld for as long as i can. Thinking back, when i recall how badly baby cried when I stubbornly refused to give FM, sometimes i wld feel guilty for letting her suffer such hunger then. I also tried Fenugreek and domperidone, but didn't seem to help much.
So for me, it was partial BFg, but at least I'm happy and proud to have hung on for more than a year. After ML, I pumped at work initially. And since my workplace is near my parents' place, I also tried to go and latch her on during lunch time. And I kept up with the feed b4 bedtime. During weekends, just latch on whenever needed. Thankfully she slept thru the night almost just b4 my ML ended. So no more night feeds by then.
Think this time round, I shall just accept that every baby's different, take cue from baby and be prepared to feed hourly if needed. And to stay stress-free, and have more confidence and faith in myself.
When u think abt how in the end it's all for the sake of baby, u'll just push on and do it. Jia you! You're doing well!