Bigbear, hugzzz... Rest your mind and worries unto HIM.. God bless u for your BT on wed. I will pray for u too!
Please pardon me Bigbear, as I am not gd in consoling people. But I choose to reject the negative thought that non of us sisters here will not have a child of our own. As I was reading through the PWH blog, and the post on 26Aug2011, it seems to answer your earlier query, and to many of us who have once harbored such negative thoughts.
Quoted from the PWH blog...
Read Aug 26 2011
Today it may look like infertility is a permanent road block preventing you from reaching your desired destination. It may seem as if every prayer you pray goes unanswered, God is silent, and all the news is bad. It may feel like no one cares, there is no cause for hope, and all is lost.
But it is an illusion. A false perception. A lie.
The key to seeing past illusion of predestined failure to the blessing that awaits is to stay in faith.
Tell God, " I may not understand this plan, and I may not like what u see or think or feel, but I will trust you. I will believe that the promise "all things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose" is for me - and the child you have chosen to come into the life of this family."
Keep God's Promises in front of you, put the lies of the deceiver behind you, and walk confidently into the future God has planned for u.