DEPRESSION

[Linwong]

Hi,

Has anyone gone through depression before and being diagonised with OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder)? Basically, I am one with this kind of mental condition. I am a non-abusive person, but I am very bothered by unwanted thoughts and if I tend to say something hurtful or do something wrong, the guilt in me will stay very long and unable to break free from it. I am also very scared of dirt and will wash my hands more than what a normal person will do. When I leave the house, I will check a few times if the gas stove has been switched off as I am worried something will happen due to my recklessness. At times, I will feel frustrated and kick up a row with my husband. The feeling of frustration and helplessness is always there especially so when my girl is getting a bit way out of hand. I did have slight post partum depression when I have my girl and will think of doing stupid things but still can differentiate right from wrong. I am wondering how I managed to overcome all odds and still capable of looking after my girl....she is almost 2 yrs old. Anyone undergoing the same situation as me and would want to share more?

 

[chloeliu]

hi lin,I dun hv ocd but understand what u mean by the tyoe of mental torture u r sharing abt.I think u r stronger than u know,which is why u hv been able to look after ur girl. r u a stay home mum?ur situation sounds similar to when I had my first child n was looking after him alone.

 

[MelT80]

Hi Lin,
I agreed with Chloe. You are stronger than you know. I do have similar symptoms as you and was at a lost at times.
I guess what keep us going are our kids. Getting support and encouragement from family, hb and close friends will make things better. Try to relax ourselves is the best remedy. Jia You.

 

[Linwong]

I am a stay at home mum sometimes I feel frustrated and hopeless as I cant seem to get my child to listen to me. She is turning 2 on May and reaching
the stage of so-called (terrible twos). I am also on medication for my condition cos OCD patients must take medication to keep their "checking and washing hand symptoms" under control. Everytime when I leave the house, I must check if the gas stove is not switched on, and all other switches around the house. I dare not use the insecticide for fear that my hands will be smeared with the scent of the spray and I feel particulary sensitive towards things like washing powder and liquid detergent. I was always thinking that if I touch these things and use my hands to prepare food for my child, she will get intoxicated. Until now, I still do all these "funny stuffs" and at times, I really feel so tired and miserable. My husband has assured me that nothing is going to happen, sometimes it works and sometimes I just continue with what I am doing. I have become ultra-sensitive to germs and dirt...........i am really a freak......................

 

[chloeliu]

hi lin,ur not a freak but as u mentioned its a medical condition and u can get better...