Mummies,
Please help!
I am not able to get this out of my mind. I am a christian mummy with one daughter only. She is already in p1 and I have been praying and praying for a 2nd child. In 2008, I suffered two miscarraiges and I have not been able to conceive since. I have cried out to God upteem times but there seems to be no answer.
I feel resentful whenever I go to church and i see the many christian families with 3 to 4 kids. Why doesn't God want to bless me???? What is wrong with me wanting another child?
I have been seeing a TCM doctor but to no avail. My husband is not open to doing an IUI or IVF as he feels embarrassed to have his sperms tested.
My life for the last 6 years has been a nightmare. After I gave birth to my girl, I went into depression because my husband lost his job and we felt terribly financially tight at that point in time. Both of us had unstable jobs and our careers were going nowhere. I felt very angry with him as most of my other girlfriends have husbands doing very very well. We quarelled like crazy.
In 2007, things got better and for various reasons, we decided to try for another child or rather I should say I started to feel one child is not enough.Unfortunately, I contrated hyper-thyroid. In 2008, thats when I managed to conceive but it ended in two miscarriages. Its been a long time but I still can' accept the fact that I will have only one child. It's driving my husband and child nuts and driving me nuts as well. If this continues, I will be back to see the psychiatrist.
I really really need prayer for peace and a closure. I will appreciate all advise.
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