@Wanbaby, I feel you too. I just failed my 3rd fresh. I transferred 2 embies, 1 grade 4 day 3 8 cells and 1 grade 3 day 3 7 cells. (KKH's grading 5 for being the best)
Tested postive 4 days before BT & the lines are getting stronger each day. However the night before BT I got a terrible cramps & starts bleeding. On the day of my BT I start passing some clumpy tissues out and instantly I knew it was a gone case for the cycle. True enough my BT came back negative. Arghh it's like so near yet so far. Feeling very sad & so dejected as it is our last chance for our fresh cycle.
Though deep down feeling very sad, surprisingly I did not shed a single tears. Not sure if it's because my tears are dried up or my heart is feeling numb for the number of failures. Really 佩服 to the wonderful strong ladies here for trying for so many rounds. Financially drained, I doubt we will go for another fresh cycle.
It's good that you are still trying naturally and there is a possibility if you getting pregnant.
For my case, I have only one working ovary with 2 swollen tubes cum male issues. So getting preg naturally is definitely very very slim for me. Also, the whole process has strained my hub's confidence in trying naturally. I doubt he will overcome his psychological barrier any sooner. So trying naturally is totally out for me.
I do have 1 golden embie to be freezed.
But it's a grade 4 day 3 4 cells embryo. By right for a day 3 embie, it should be dividing into 8 cells ideally. The embie may not survive the thawing process if we wanna use it in future. It may have chromosome or abnormal issues as it's growing so slowly and might not be implanted even if it survived the thaw.
But being an optimist, I am thinking of transfering this one and only embie next year while I continue to "tiao" my body.
I can't sentence my one and only embie to death for growing at such a slow stated right? Must give it a chance I feel. Who knows this little slow grower will survive the thaw & sticks & grows healthy when transfer back into my womb. I must have confidence in it. Well, no matter what's the outcome, be it a success or failure, at least we did try our best already.
So don't give up ya and be positive. We need to be patience for our success.
I'm sure god will save the best for you & you will have your bundle of joy in your arms soon! Jia you!
Sorry for the super long post ya!