dear Monster,
Thanks very much for your comforting words & writing to me despite your busy schedule. Very much appreciated and reassuring. Of cos it will be best if this thread is as quiet as possible cos this is not a good place to be in. I just thought I might be talking to myself as I saw the thread has been quiet.
I guess our lives are tougher and harder than others. We need to put in much more effort than others to get a healthy baby. Sometimes I wonder if I'm jinxed, just dont seem to get out of the vicious cycle.
I'm glad that you now have a boy after what has happened. I hope I will be like you soon.
Yah, I know what you are saying about baby showers and the baby chucking part. I think some people believe if you carry a newborn, you will be blessed with one soon. I genna this during CNY this year & I really hate it! I refuse to carry the baby end up my hubby carried
Maybe their intention is good for us but I just dont like the execution part.
Friends around us are popping or already popped babies. I also feel the 'inbalance' during such gatherings so if it's really close friends gathering, then I'll attend. I dont know how I should behave. If I show my unhappy face, is like spoiling the gathering mood; if I show like nothing happened, I find it tough and unfair to my unborns. There will always be people who doesnt know my history and will start asking when we are having a kid, I dont know how to answer and either I got reminded of my sad history or I'll feel offended by such insensitivity. Well, sometimes people just need to be sensitive, esp when they know we have been married for long, they should know either we have no plans to have a baby or prob there might be something physically wrong with the couple. Else, any normal couple would have had a kid after so many years of marriage.
This round, because the baby has been formed, we will be doing a proper cremation for her on our own as we are not sure how the hospital will handle her. I cant imagine that they would just dump her off as bio-waste :_(
I'll be doing confinement, I did so for my last 2 miscarriages as well. Since no harm to my body, I'll try to stick to it and make sure all is good for conception next time. I'm thinking to get a Malay masseur to do postnatal massage for me too.
I'm feeling calmer today though I would still tear when I read your post. Everything feel just as normal as before we know about Kayla. I know next week will be tougher cos that's when the reality will really set in....Today a lady gave up her seat to me in the MRT. At that moment, I felt blessed becos people can see I'm pregnant. I'm enjoying my pregnancy and my bump. It saddened me the next moment to think that this is not going to last.
Hi Sticky,
Not KKH, I'm doing at Mt E. I had a laparscopy surgery at Mt E too during my 2nd miscarriage, stayed a night there and I think the staff there was ok. Anyway, my PM should be on, if there's anything you need to tell me, pls feel free.
Thanks to all of you for 'listening' to me and sharing/giving your thoughts...they have been helpful.