Missed Miscarriage at Week 20

[tinkle_stars]

With no symptom like bleeding or spotting, the gynae discovered that my baby has no heartbeat during one of our routine checkup and is no longer moving at Week 20.

It's heartbreaking especially everyone already know that I'm expecting and both husband and myself felt the baby's kicks just few days before the news break off to us.

It's so cruel to me when the only way to take out the baby is to insert multiple pills into my virginal, experience cramps, diarrhea and deliver it as per normal. Needless to say to have confinement after that too.

Till now, I got no idea what I've did that my baby's heartbeat has stopped suddenly, the gynae mentioned that it may be just genetic where bad egg meets bad sperm during conceiving.

I can only keep blaming myself, blaming for taking things for granted, blaming for doing housework as usual, for traveling during pregnancy, for eating not well and not rest enough.

Hope anyone who has the same experience to share.

 

[crayoncin]

dear tinkle stars. ..i feel you..on 13 dec 2013 friday... i had a missed miscarriage at 20 weeks. it was for my detailed scan. but all i saw was my baby not moving. doc says she died at 16 weeks based on her size and i didnt even know cos my last check was on 15 weeks 5 days. it was hell. i cried n cried everyday. n my first born was asking for her mei mei. i felt guilty that as a 2nd time mother why i didn't know something was up when i didn't feel her movements. this june...i discovered i was preggy but it ended in a blighted ovum.i was v devastated. im also at a loss as to what to do n i feel so tired and i will stop conceiving for now. im trying to recover now. im really sorry for yr loss. i hope u know that its normal to feel what ur feeling now. life may seem meaningless now but please be strong and recover well. i wish you the best.

 

[tinkle_stars]

Thanks Crayoncin for sharing. I can feel you too especially we have both passed the 1st trimester and we all thought everything is ok and not that "risky" anymore and the whole families are so excited with the upcoming little one. And my baby actually passed her oscar tests at week 10 too.

It's really a nightmare to me, everything went so fast before I can accept it. From knowing the news, induce, deliver and now doing confinement. I wish I can wake up from this nightmare now and I'm actually still pregnant with my baby.

I'm now acting strong in front of everyone so that nobody will worry about me but deep in me, my heart hurts....

 

[crayoncin]

i know what u mean..my harmony results were perfect too. n i bought so much stuff for her. its a nightmare that i didnt wake up from n till now from time to time i still cry. its natural for us to grieve. ur experiencing what i experienced. pls take time to grieve. dont bottle it up. im in a far worse state than you..i had recurrent miscarriages in a row. do pm me if u need a listening ear. it can be frustrating to talk to someone who hasn't been thru this. lets jia you n take yr time to heal. all the best.

 

[ecym]

Hugs @tinkle_stars @crayoncin ...

 

[starlights]

i know what u mean..my harmony results were perfect too. n i bought so much stuff for her. its a nightmare that i didnt wake up from n till now from time to time i still cry. its natural for us to grieve. ur experiencing what i experienced. pls take time to grieve. dont bottle it up. im in a far worse state than you..i had recurrent miscarriages in a row. do pm me if u need a listening ear. it can be frustrating to talk to someone who hasn't been thru this. lets jia you n take yr time to heal. all the best.

Yea indeed. So thank god for this forum.