mamaliz
hahahaha..me too!! need more than 1 chance.. hehehe
I'm being honest eh wit u all...but jgn kecik hati tau...ni frm the very bottom of my heart..i keep bottling it up recently so i need to let go..
I may be celupar oso.. like talking abt sexual thingy openly maybe cz we all galz but i noe some ppl are nt comfortable wit it... if i sense or noe, i wont talk abt it if the person is dere...
I may hurt ur feelings cz i straightforward & direct type of person...I don like it, i may tell u...
I noe many ppl cant accept me for who i am.. cz I'm single mum..nt ordinary single mum.. Unwed & hv a child... and oso the father of my child is a married man.. ppl may preceive me as perampas or rosak rumahtangga org eventhough they dunno wat actually happen...
And they find it insecure if i make fren wit them esp if we meet together wit their hubbies or call the hubbies abg (as a form of respect cz they are elder..tu ajer)... Well, i understand...
siapa i ni kan..i noe i'm imperfect many2...hehehe...
Some don like me to call my ex Syg or talk abt him... they find it geli... I noe u all hv hubby... I don hv any..so when u talk abt ur luv life thingy... Who can i relate to except for dektu kan... And when i talk abt him, doesnt mean i hang on to him... If I hang on, I wont be going out wit my bfs... Life hv to move on rite...
some of u may say I don understand a wife feeling..why? juz bcz I'm nt a wife? yes! maybe I am.. but a wife is still a woman & I'm one of them.. plz don make such comment.. It does hurt my inner feeling..
Some of u may feel kesian wit me.. Nt kesian tt i want....its the respect & friendship tt i want... cz if u all rasa kesiankan i ajer, the friendship wont last if any misunderstanding occur & he/she will ungkit.... like "actually i kesian kan u...but i don like u for ur tis character"...
Certain things ppl talk abt i may not understand...maybe cz lain generation or pergaulan... If u all talk selindung2 gitu I may nt get it/understand.. nt tt i act blur ye...
lastly, i do treasure my frens & ppl ard me...
To those who hv been dere for me sincerely & accept me for who I am w/o being judgemental... Thks alot..No words can expressed my thankful...Semoga Allah membalas their gd deeds...Amin..