syukur alhamdulilah my DD dh tk de jaundice...
dh latch on... sakit juga.. but at the same time i feel so ticklish seh... BF leh ketawa2...
I'm coping quite well... bb bangun during midnite jer...
tadi pagi my wound area rasa sakit2... maybe cz smlm i layankan my niece to get her to slp..dh mlm2 buta lum tdo2 but mummy dia dh KO...
tadi pagi2 buta feel abit pissed off wit mum.. i called her ample of times but she tk dgr.. nk dia susukan my DD..i dh la sakit2, nk bangun susah.. since she tk dgr, i force myself to sit up... make milk for DD & salin pampers... den went back to slp wit DD on my chest... bila nk sahur, mum saw bb on my chest.. i told her tt i called her but dia masih tdo.. i apologized to her for feeling so fed up wit her... she was shocked cz tk dgr i panggil dia...
i feel so serba salah..keep aplogizing.. told her i tk de niat nk feel like tt towards her, maybe i was in pain & tired tts y at tt moment i feel tt way.. she laughed.. masa i ngah susukan DD, i realised mum is tired for taking care of her 2 grand daughters.. i shld hv blame sis instead of her cz sepatut nya dia yg jaga anak dia since she's well bkn ibu..
And I'm glad my mum tk bangun so she can rest & i learnt smth today... penat atau sakit mcm mana, its my duty to take care of DD bkn ibu..it worth an exp! my DD kasi i semangat... mum was actually surprised i tk kejutkan dia & can hear my bb crying unlike my sis... i feel so blessed having a kid... hv a new direction in life..