@codomo I think most of us had the exact conversations
. seriously, I have stopped asking which god why never give us this and that. When you ask, they say "things always happens for a reason". simi reason leh? "you will know when ti comes". OMG! but we will never know the reason one. So forget it la. Just focus on yourself, be a good person as you have always been true to your conscious and continue to focus on getting your health right and analyze the possible reason what can be done further to change the protocol for you.
I know negative results are hard to accept. Take some time to cry then think of what you want to do next. For me, I have never succeeded in any cycles. So I think, you will succeed soon since you did on 1st attempt!